Every Christian knows that there are certain periods of time you will go through that are going to be a struggle. Part of having a strong faith, is knowing that God has a much bigger and better plan for your life than you can come up with. As I have been a Christian for 14 years now, I can tell you it is a true statement that being a Christian is not always easy. Your relationship with God has ebbs and flows over time.
I hit a small low last week. I have of course had a migraine, some dizziness and fibromyalgia pain for several months. This has been a struggle no doubt, and definitely wears on a person, but I have to say last Wednesday I did not know what hit me. After a night with no sleep(another joy that I have been enduring lately) I had been doing OK with the lack of sleep, but by about 10 am it all changed for the worse. You see I was now in an even higher amount of pain, nauseous, so weak I could hardly lift my hand much less talk, and because of it all, so irritable and uncomfortable I wanted to climb out of my own body. Big sigh! Talk about yucky! I immediately instructed my husband to spread a prayer request ASAP. He lovingly and urgently bade my request and fervently prayed with me himself. I spent the remainder of the day praying and feeling my passion for the Lord slipping a little as my frustration and impatience grew. I have had many days in this cycle and throughout my life that have been 'bad', but I have to tell you,I don't remember feeling that bad before. Thankfully since then I have improved some, though I have still felt rotten enough that I decided to take my in-laws up on their offer to allow me to move in with them to test the theory that my environment is the major contributing factor in my poor health. This was not the easiest decision to make as a newlywed. I have gotten a little attached to having my best friend right by my side all the time. I kinda love the man! ;) Even though the decision was tough, after much prayer and discussion(and the pure frustration of little improvement) we scheduled my flight for yesterday. I was able to say goodbye and spend some time with my family and a few friends in the few days before my flight, which was a blessing, but also very exhausting. I was very anxious to get to St. Louis just to get a chance to rest!
My sweet mother-in-law was there to pick me up and had already met with a homeopathic pharmacist/MD and had a few supplements for me to begin immediately. After I was not greatly improved, and in fact quite exhausted by early afternoon today, she spoke to the pharmacy again and they referred us to a Dr. Yu, who began his carrier as an internist, and now practices alternative and complimentary medicine as well. We have scheduled the next available appointment which is not until the 30th, however they have me on an urgent cancellation list. After reading up on this Doctor, we are all feeling very optimistic and expecting great healing to come soon!
I listened to a sermon this morning and one of the quotes I took away from it was that the light is brightest when it is darkest. Think about how bright the stars are in the middle of nowhere compared to being in the middle of a city. I am fervently praying that God continues to use this dark period of my life for His glory, and that His bright amazing light will shine through my experience!
Please pray that God will show me how to best exhibit his glorious light and love to others. Pray that the appointment goes well, and that if possible we can get in earlier than scheduled. Also be in prayer for my husband and I. We have a very strong relationship and are able to skype, facetime, and text throughout the day, but are a little sad we don't actually get to see each other in person for quite a while, we know this is a time when Satan really looks to attack. I want to ask that you pray for not only our military, but for their families as well. Dan and I are really gaining an appreciation for the void they must feel in their lives when they are away for such long periods. I also want to ask for prayer for my sweet friend Lisa. She was blessed with the gift of a healthy kidney from her brother last week. Everything has gone great so far, which shows Gods amazing glory and mercy. I pray that things will continue to improve for this wonderful child of God!
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